I started yoga simply when I didn’t know what else to do. On a journey to recover from an eating disorder I felt like I had no where else to turn. I felt like I was alone and like I was going to have obsessions and compulsions around food forever. I committed to just one class. That’s it with no expectation beyond a commitment to one class. Then, it became another. And another. And another.
It wasn’t long before I knew something inside me had changed, and that’s when I knew yoga was the next path to be taken on the road to recovering from an eating disorder. I started meditating daily and diving deeper into the philosophy of yoga, on and off the mat. In my mind, my goal, LIVE YOUR YOGA. Saying good-bye to my all or nothing personality and constant striving for perfection.
I began to using the Five Pillars of Yoga to reveal how much of an effect disordered eating was having on me in body, mind and spirit, it taught me how to feel in order to heal. Yoga led me to reflect more on how I was treating my body- the ways I accepted and did not accept myself -and it began to transform me. Years of yoga and practice of karma and ahimsa (non-violence) brought me closer to my spiritual self. I became more loving toward myself.
I now use yoga for the physical practice, but even more so, I use yoga to uncover and understand the layers of experiences I encounter in my life, including those that threaten to undermine my confidence and self worth.
Understanding our self-worth- living intentionally, being our best selves, maintaining impeccable health- this gives us the capacity to transform our lives and the lives of the people we love.
I’m finally at a place where I know I am enough.